The loner

“Loneliness is the most terrible poverty”- Mother Teresa

Not having friends, or losing your friends due to irrationality is the worst punishment given by the gods.

“Loneliness is about the scariest thing out there”- Josh Whedon

You become totally isolated. Doing the same routines on your own. Being locked up alone and fighting your demons alone with the help of no one.

“Midnight is the time I feel the depth of my Loneliness.”- Sweet Nida

The Bible assures one that Jesus is the greatest friend, but lets be rational you still need the less greatest human friends to take you off a part of the lasting sadness that roams about earth. Jesus went through his own share of loneliness after his baptism, but was it as intense as it is for some of us now that technology has taken over the majority of physical human interraction?

He sure knows how it feels not to have people to hang out with. He knows how it feels to have friends seperated by distance who have made new friends and have moved on. He knows how it feels like to be so attatched to someone that when you do not hear from the person for a week or over you begin to lose your mind. He knows how it feels like to be your own friend and being tired of it. He knows because he created us. He put the feeling there.

That is why sometimes, because we aren’t perfect, we forget He is the greatest friend- the one who never leaves you nor forsakes you, and do things contrary to his will.

“God I pray I will stop feeling so alone and God will fill this void in my life”- Unknown
You do not want to know the amount of times I have prayed this prayer.

How about times when one knows he/she is going contrary to his will and yet goes ahead to do whatever is proposed in his/her mind?

This is where human contact is needed.

I’ve heard people say it’s good to enjoy your company, but too much of enjoying ones company can be very bad. One begins to talk to himself alone while walking on the streets. One begins to create his/her own world in the head creating stories that will likely not come to pass (LOL sometimes I do these). Then addiction comes in. Being addicted, or almost addicted to something one knows is wrong but indulges in it anyway because it gives partial satisfaction.

“Up until now I had sworn to myself I am content with loneliness”

The worse being that you become lost. And when you want to reach out to the ones who you think may listen to you, you seem desperate.

Then it happens that you’re the one always asking and trying to find out what is going on with your ‘friend’ who probably has pressing engagements and cannot answer you very quickly- Your friendship seems one-sided.

“Sometimes in life, the person who tries to keep everyone happy, turns out being the most lonely person”

But what if it isn’t so? What if they just do not want to speak with you?

Sometimes when one doesn’t hear from a friend and is really angry (like me sometimes) he/she makes up excuses for this friend and reluctantly come to the conclusion that he/she is being selfish.

To some people however, loneliness isn’t the worst feeling. The worst to them is being forgotten by the ones you cannot forget.

Other times, you just sit there and realize you have a vast number of ‘friends’ and ‘followers’ on the social network planet that cannot even rescue you.
For me at times I feel really stupid when I tweet because no one actually cares, yet I do not deactivate the account. Even when I tweet what seems to be the funniest thing.

It is even more depressing when you realize your many ‘friends’ like M&M’s in a 200g pack know eachother and somewhat hold discussions leaving you behind!

Twitter is the meanest planet on the social networking universe.

I have understood the true meaning and value of friendship. I have seen that sometimes we lose our friends stupidly because of feelings like anger that go away after the damage is done.

“I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness”

Most times it is good to make new friends, but 21st century friendship through physical contact has proven too difficult to make.
For some people, language is a barrier and for others race.

“The worst thing in the world isn’t being alone. It’s being surrounded by people who make you feel like you are alone”

I remember one song/poem I was taught in my formative years

Make new friends, but keep the old
One is silver and the other is gold.

“The biggest disease to mankind is loneliness”-KJS

The whole concept of friendship is so complicated yet very beautiful. Friends no matter how good or bad shape us into being who we are. It explains why frienship is essential to mankind just as oxygen is.

 Uaigneach is Irish Gaelic for ‘lonely’. Thanks for reading! 🙂


2 thoughts on “Uaigneach.

  1. Joanna that is a beautiful peace just keep the good work. Loneliness is part of our daily living we cannot do without it.

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